Love Concurs All ....Or Does It?

Ugh! A year & three months are sounding longer & longer! I hate this! Why can't I have him now! It's not fair! It's not like I woke up one day & said I didn't want him there.
He was taken away from me. I didn't have a say in the matter.... & it's MY life! & I hate it when other people try to take control of it.
Their always saying,
"You have to learn from your mistakes."
Then let me learn, daym it! So what if it takes me longer. At least I'll be learning on my own.
Isn't that what you wanted me to do? Grow up & take responsibility of my own.
Your always complaining about how I never do anything for myself.
How I'm always crying to you for every little thing.
Then, the one time I actually stand up & try to handle things on my own, you steel back the reigns & take control again. I'm tired of it.
I'm old enough to choose who I want to be with. I'm old enough to decide who I love.
& you think this is going to stop me? Absofuckingluty not.
Sure, for now. But in fifteen months I'm going to be back in his arms.
& you cant say a word about it.
Stop trying to fix everything. I'm not you, I wont let things get that bad. I watched what you went through. I heard your pain. Do you really think Id be stupid enough to let myself go through all that heartache after watching you? I'm going to be smarter. I'm going to be that tough little girl that you brought me up to be.
I'm a big girl now mom. & my own person.
Please..... stop treating me like I'm the 17 flashback of you.
I promise you... I'll be okay. & with out you. I'm not saying I'll never need you again.
I'm just saying.... it's my heart that's broken. So let ME be the one to fix it.



Love,
Your [Not So Little] Girl <3

Love Is Just A Lie~Wrapped In The Prettyest Of Bows...

& im so glad i was the one to make you fall.

for someone who doesnt believe in love
you sure seem to fake it well
oh, baby what a show
id throw you flowers if i wasnt too busy pukeing
your acting is amazing
you actualy had me fooled for a second
believeing you were the one
darling please, theres always a nother one out there
just the same if not better
who are you trying to fool?
i know this game too well
all the lies your about to tell
baby, iv heard them before
i know how it will end before it even starts
dont let this soft shell fool you
inside this sweet little girl
is a rageing woman just dieing to come out
iv held everything in for so long
no more! now its my turn to get even
baby, i love you
i never want to be with out you
your my everything
im playing this game so well
your hanging on to my every word
believeing that im actualy falling
your almost there, just a little more
there, i got you hooked
time to throw you back to the sharks
oh, you thought i was serious?!?
ha! please i was playing the game
& better than you did i might add
i must hand it to myself though
i played a good role
i almost had even myself fooled
looks like im a better actress after all.

& im so glad i was the one to make you fall.




Love,
Cupids Survivor

THE SHOW

Dedicated To My Bestie: Nadine

Come one, come all
And see the show.
Come see the light,
Bask in there glow.
Why don't you join us?
Live in a cage.
Dance for the patrons,
March in our parade.
We'll sweep you up, drag you along.
You'll march to our beat, sing our sweet song.
The chains clamp down, their hands won't let go.
Screaming for peace...
Consumed by the show.
The crowd looks on,
With mild disgust.
Another is lost... victim to lust.
The ring master croons
From behind his neon glow...
Don't worry folks,
It's all part of THE SHOW.


Love,
Cupids Survivor

Baby, This Time Kill Me A Bit Softer

Its a 'flavor of the week' epidemic,
And I've got it bad
Screaming your name in ecstasy
"I want you now!"
They say patience is a virtue,
Too bad I have none
I cant wait any longer
Feel like I'm going to explode
This kind of love is like a disease,
Suffering from symptoms of you
It's a sickness not even a doctor can cure
Makes me sweat,
Turns your stomach inside out
Grab on to something quick
You're about to fall down
You make it so hard to hate you,
Even though your in my head
Your controlling how I feel
I never wanted to love you,
But your so much stronger than me
Trying to hold back
But your slowly taking over
I'm losing energy
I tell myself I'm strong enough
But I wonder do I mean it?
It's impossible to deny you
But baby truth is,
Nothings ever truly impossible

Love,
Cupids Survivor.

You'r My WiFey For LiFey <3

[Glitterfy.com - *Glitter Photos*]

Anti Heartbreak

Looking Out The Window
Snow Flakes Lingering In The Air
Hott Cocoa Burns Your Tongue
Slip On Your Coat
Sledding, Skiing, Snowball Fights
Soft Kisses, Make Your Body Warm
Sound Of Your Friends Laughter
Suddenly It's All Better

Because You Know

Their Love For You

Is Real

Winter = Anti Heartbreak

Love,

Santa's Baby

♥Babiee, I Havent Forgotten Anything♥

You Think That I Don't Care.
Gods Honest Truth?...
I Don't.
Not About Who Your With Anyway.
But About You
Of Course!
Even The Things You Say And Do.
Don't Believe Me?
Here's The Facts...
I Still Sleep With Your Bear Every Night. [Charlie]
He's Become A Part Of Me Just Like You Did.
He's The Only Thing Left To Remember You By.
All Though I Did Find One Of Your Shirts
Just The Other Day.
I'm Surprised The Sent Is Still There.
I Find Myself Smelling It Every Now And Then
Just To Remind Myself Of How Good You Smelt.
The Sent Of Your Cologne;
Moms Fabric Softener From The Dryer.
Its All Still There
Sunk Into Every Little Stitch.
I Love The Way I Feel When I Breath It All It.
Its So Sensational!
I Miss It.
The Cross Necklace You Gave Me...
The One With the Purple Stones...
I Wear It Everyday.
Never Take It Off
It's Engraved Into My Neck
And It Will Through Out My Life.
Its Ahhmazing How Much I Remember
[It Sometimes Throws Me Back]
The First "Gift" You Ever Gave Me...
The Rock Shaped As A Heart.
I'll Never Forget That Day
Or How Good You Made Me Feel.
Its Mind Boggling How Something THAT Wonderful
Can Be Real!
Still Not Convinced That I Care More Than You Know

Then I Guess My Time Was Waisted
And You'll Never Understand
So I Guess I'll Just Grab Charlie
And Snuggle Up In Bed
I Love You, You Jerk!
Get That Through Your Head!

Love,
Cupids Survivor